So many times I saw something this past year and thought, you would love that. I always looked for a birthday gift that would let you know how much I loved you as my sister. Sure, when we were growing up you would wear my clothes without asking or I would blame something on you so I wouldn't get in trouble, but I never imagined the strength of our sisters bond in the years that followed. And now I am here without you and missing you terribly. I have talked to you this past year but never got any response. You have come into my dreams occassionaly but never said a word. I can still hear your laugh, see your smile and hear the walls shake when you were flying off the handle about something that now just seems so trivial. I never imagined spending a birthday without you and now I approach my second one without you beside me. I think of you often and hope that you have found peace. I will honor your birthday today and hope that you know how blessed I am to have had you as my sister.